When we start to meditate or to work with any kind of spiritual discipline, we often think that somehow we are going to improve, which is a sort of subtle aggression against who we really are. It's a bit like saying, "If I jog, I'll be a much better person, or "If I could get a nicer house, I'd be a better person, or "If I could meditate and calm down, I'd be a better person. Or the scenario may be that we find fault with others and we might say "If it weren't for the fact that my boss and I can't get along, my job would be just great, or "If it weren't for my mind, my meditation would be excellent......." In fact, we can still be angry after all these years. We can still be timid or jealous or full of feelings of unworthiness. The point is not to try to change ourselves. Meditation practice is not about trying to throw ourselves away and become something better. It is about befriending who we are already. The ground of practice is you or me or whoever we are right now, just as we are.